"Every now and then, I think to myself:
I'm broken.
I can't love anyone or feel affection.
I'm all alone and I hate it.
But I can't suppress the cold,
dark urge I feel inside me.
I can't kill the monster that lurks within.
I'm powerless.
So this is the only way I know how to live.
If I could have killed that monster...
would I have learned to love?
Could I have been a better mother for my son?
I love him very much...
At least I think I do.
As far as I'm aware, I gave him my everything.
But I just don't understand.
I can't make it work.
No matter how hard I try...
I can't get through to him
I am alone."

Tragic how similar Towa and his mom turned out to be, but I'm glad he finally managed to kill that monster and move past it.