It's all in the music: Gambling is pornographic, exploits the brain. We fake the stakes for games, but keep the porn. It's flashy, emotionally up and down, and pervasively, subconsciously yearning, unsure, and sad.

My relationship to solitaire is similar. Shuffling card sounds are fun, sometimes I want to play when I'm outside of the game, but I lose it after a while. Feels existential.