alchemically irresistible to me, just the perfect cross-section of interests from all over my life: my relatively recent affection for the work and world of jay tholen, my since-youth affection for retro shooters, and my Deeply Ingrained Primordial Attraction towards art that is wantonly self-indulgent and wish fufilling to the effect of exposing the psyche of its creator...here its deployed to the effect of an extremely striking character study, as melancholy and compassion-inducing as it is straightforwardly thrilling and charming. i used to seek out "bad" fanfiction for this effect, and in general i find this stuff freeing and wonder-inducing even if its also illustrative of flaws in the person. as always with thelon, deeply and unrelentingly humane, while always feeling expressive without compromise. also v funny and v fun !