After 10 years I'm starting to think the fact that a serial abuser, four groomers/pedos, an e-beggar, an alt-right chud, and two actual sociopaths in my life all loved osu! might not be a coincidence.

Also when I watched some official osu! tournament in like 2013-2014 on Twitch, the presenter accidentally went to their desktop and the background was some loli in a bikini so there's that. I guess that's not very surprising though since every other map has scantily-clad lolis as the background.

At least I had fun for the thousands of hours I put into this oh wait no I didn't, good riddance, give me back 250GB+ of hard drive space on your way out

I fuck with the visuals, the aesthetics, the vibes, the twisted horror of this world that feels impossible to truly engage or interact with. Vague in presentation, other beings feeling so alien and disconnected, doing your best to stay focused on whatcha need to get done. I liked how the intrusive thoughts were interspersed with the nicer options, not blocked off to show you how the MC is doing her best to hold on with these meds that just aren't working that well for her. Working just well enough to function and get things done but not enough to stop the pain of the awful shitty thoughts at least being there. You have to see them even if you don't want to/don't pick them. Empty vacant holes within the self you constantly are stepping over to keep functioning.

Simplistic tasks made seemingly herculean by anxieties driven via trauma and continued loops driven by conditions both within and outside of yourself. Agoraphobia transforming others into insurmountable obstacles with nonsensical rules.

I don't think it's necessarily perfect in everything it tries to do. But I dig it and its structure. I dig the separation between the thoughts and you yourself as the reader. I dig the way it tackles disassociation especially. I dig the end and the dread instilled by it. Exhausting and continuous, seemingly never ending in its cruelty. Gotta get that milk.