This work is too fucked, its problematic pain points harder to swallow over time for me, but I cannot reconcile that discomfort when this was a very heartfelt comfy experience during a more formative time in my life. So in some ways I avoid and reject that, but one thing I feel righteous in rejecting is the notion of a work being too 'online' to experience, as if something that reminds you of the too-many-hours you spent on twitter or whatever is a not-very-valid perspective. We're in an era of people who are going to spend further or similar time looking through the internet in a way that fragments their personality into ways that become a part of what they are and having that be called "too online, feels like twitter/reddit/etc." is honestly a bit frustrating for me! I guess it's cuz i'm too online, I suppose.

Anyways Jill is me that's what I'm getting at